mess

what a mess im in. i hate my life. many things happened in just 7 months, awfully much. i hate the situation im it. having practically no confidant to talk to, having practically no time to catch up with work (actually i do, but just cant bring myself to do anything). i want a life of my own, the kind that i always yearn for. it seems that i've lost total interest in studying. i just cant produce the results that i want. People may say how smart or wadever i am, but seriously im just hardworking(moreover thats in the past). so arent i just an empty shell? what accomplishments do i have? nothing. Believe in yourself and thats the biggest accomplishment in life, one may say; i want to but i simply cant. i have lost however diminutive amount of confidence i had. so what if i got into a sch that i like? Life has nv been great for me. whatever la.. i just have to force myself to study. embracing myself will be the best antidote now...

on a lighter note.. i read this somewhere: love is never 50-50. it always take someone to say "i love you" before u fall in love w him/her. quite true isnt it? seem so cruel right?
something random...it happens most of the time: when u like a person, he or she sadly has no feelings for you, however when a person likes u, u simply have no feelings for him and u just simply hate him so much for being so pervertic and irritating! hahas. so dumb right? xp
-monoko-